thank god for this thing called friendster! =) last night, as i opened my account, lo and behold, an invite from a long lost friend was up for approval. syempre naman, i hurriedly clicked on the approve button and started browsing through her list of friends. and to my luck, three of our common friends were listed so i checked out their profiles and requested them to be my “friends” too. happiness, excitement and fear came over me after that moment because i thought, “what if they don’t want to be found or have totally scratched my name off their friend-list?” nevertheless, i still continued what i intended to do last night and prayed to god that they’ll remember.

today, after my usual morning routine and making sure that the kids are full, i turned on the pc to see if god did grant my wish. you wouldn’t believe this but indeed my prayer was answered. i got a message from one of the three pals i looked up last night and to my surprise, i found out that Marianne had been trying to reach me since the day she left for dubai about 2 or 3 years ago. tears welled up my eyes with what she had written and was touched by her recollection of our good times together. my kids looked at me with awe as they see their mom cry and laugh at the same time (kaya nyo yun?!).

After all this time, I still couldn’t believe that my friends were just as hopeful as I was in finding them. Now that I have established contact, I know that what was once put on hold will now flourish into wonderful and meaningful relationships.

Looking back in time, i could see in my mind all the people who have, even once, crossed my path. some remained to be within reach..others just disappeared. many times i ask myself did i do anything wrong to fend them off or was it just a fact that indeed people come and go. it saddens me to think how life was so great when everything around me was less complicated…like back in high school. I have had my share of friends and foe…sometimes turning the latter into closer friends than those who are originally attached to me. but the questions in my mind still never got answers….where are they now? why have they left? am i not a good ally?

It’s saddening to think that the friends who are nearest me are the ones really “farthest” while others whom i have never ever seen for years were the ones, i could tell, nearest..to me..to my heart. Now I have learned that when you lose something or someone..there is always something or someone better coming. And it proved to be true. Finding Marianne and Mau, opened doors for more friends to be found.

I am sad because of the people i lost but most importantly happy for finally finding the others.